Too much happening.

So it has been a while since a real post, a post that really tells what I have been doing not just a whole bunch of jumbled words and senetences that jump at me in the night.

Holidays have now come to an end, which for the first time I am happy for. They have just dragged on and on till the point where I couldn't wait to see the end of the tunnel. I not only found a job in the holidays I found a cold, a few BAD headaches, some great inspiration and heaps of sleep.
My job as a sandwhich artist (bahaha, I know right? Subway) is so so cool. I really love it. I am also 100percent sure that if it wasn't in the airport it would be boring. No one likes talking to english people all day long right?

I have also never been asked so many times in my life if I was from the Middle East, India or Spain. One guy even asked me in spanish if I was spanish..(my five hundred years of learning spanish and it came in handy.. but then again i think everyone knows what Espanol means right?)

I served some rugby players.. NZ vodafone warriors and vodafone warrior 'juniors' ;) you should of seen the smile on my face. I think being a kiwi you have an instant proudness for rugby?! or maybe it is just me. But i LOVE my rugby im a huge fan and that made my whole life great!

My favourite worship/singer guy Jake Hamilton spoke and lead worship at church... which was so amazing. He is such a cool guy. Love him.

I read no books. There goes my plan to stay in bed all day and read during the holidays. I watched way too many movies. Ate not enough food. Coloured my hair. Went to the doctors..he said I was pale-skinned (not impressed).

Alot has been happening and I could ramble on for ages about different things and this and that, but I won't.

Im so content at the moment, so happy to be where I am, learning what Im learning and seeing things and really looking into things and people and just loving them. I love where I am. I look forward to where I will go. I am a content happy child.

Ah.

Your not welcome here

Your not welcome here
with evil eyes you glance at me from afar
too scared to stare me in the eye
to see that you have been blinded by lies
you poke my heart looking to destroy dreams
but your simple words will fall at my feet
for the greatest power lives in me
your whispering jokes, insults and lies
are shoved off with a laugh
and pushed back into the dark
your not welcome here

your a shining star

we are blinding ourselves
letting our light overflow in already shining places
the lost are getting confused
walking in darkness
everyone around too scared to be themselves
light up the path in the dark
your a shining star
leading to the only way, truth and life

WOW.

Okay . At first I thought it was just a coincidence.. but now I know for sure it was God (it could have been me but it was most likely God right?)

Jason Hooper weekend, all I had was 15dollars (an offering is a sacrifice you make because you are desperate to be closer with God and give all you have to see Him sown into you - doesn't matter how much or how little) anyways.. this was all I had and the message had really touched me so I felt to give it all.
That being said, next part.
I have been praying for a job heaps recently especially since I am saving to go to Vanuatu and maybe overseas at the end of the year. ALSO someone blessed me with $150 (yes I am smiling too) for my trip to vanuatu. FLIP!

2 weeks after the conference I got a call from a job I applied for and scheduled an interview which would be on the 15th day after the conference... 15th! The interview was on the 5th (the number five shows up alot with this story.) at 4.45 (15minutes to 5?! coincidence.. i think not).

Okay.... then just today ... 5 days after my interview at 3.15 (holy crap...!!) i have a second interview/training thing set up.

Now this may all seem totally ridiculous to you all, and i did contemplate and was hesitant to write this.. but man... God doesn't just do this for no reason right??! Well who knows actually :)

So then I looked up what the number 5 means, biblically.. and it means GRACE! How flippin cool is that man! (my middle name is grace too? coincidence.. once again i think not).

So yes. I am excited. And no I haven't got the job YET. But I thought this was so cool, I had to share it :)

Longing.

No one can understand me like you.
No one listens like you.
You wrap me in your arms and never let go.
You protect me from enemies that try to sneak to me.
They whisper in my ears telling me lies.
They tempt me with the world and the little things it has to offer.
Concentration is broken.
Determination is failing.
Longing is fading.

My feet stand firm on the rock of your name.
You hold me down and say you'll bear my shame.
Nothing comes between us when I open up my heart.
I speak to you, and hope you hear.
I have put all my hearts desires on a table in the clear.
The past is just the past.
The present is in our hands.
Our future planned and mapped out.
I long to hear you in my ears.
I long to see you in my dreams.
I long to have you speak to me.
I long to have you near me.
I long to have your touch linger.
I long to have hope.
I long to have grace.
I long to have love.

I long to go to the nations.
I long to speak love to the lost.
I long to call all my own.
I long to be one with you.
I long to help those who can't help themselves.
I long to clothe many children.
I long to love like you have loved me.
I long to see revival come.
I long to see dead people raised.
I long to see millions saved.

I long to see you come.
Please come now.
The time is near.
Come down.
Cities need you.
Nations need you.
I need you.

People will fall on their knees.
Children will sing and dance.
The old will see.
The young will proclaim.
Every eye see.
Every ear hear.
Every tongue confess.

They will see.
They will hear.
They will say.
They will confess.

The world longs for you, even if they don't know it yet. Their hearts, their lives are missing something that will complete them. The time is coming when you will show yourselves to people and their longing will be made clear.

Dreaming.

Dreams overtake me when i'm unaware
most vulnerable to my hearts wishes
nothing I can do can change their ways
they slip and slide around  my head
jump in front of my eyes
swirl around my heart
I worry before I go to sleep
will this dream be for me?
can I make it come true

the dreams that come are bold
lights, colors, smells and people
countries that I love
all come to stay the night
filling me with great delight
they leave me when the real world pinches
and make me feel homesick inside

ideas have come and pinned themselves down
names have shown themselves into my head
I can't stop thinking about my dreams
they become more of a reality then you will ever think
no matter how hard I try to remain quiet
my heart is beginning to pound to loudly to be silenced

I am who I am
I dream what I wish
no matter who says
I will do this

I will take my dream and make it come true
for no one will stop me
not even you.